ok... so i've come to the realization that most of my "friends" are really not my friends. most don't talk to me, care what's going on, whatever. and i know i don't do much, but there's only so much one person can do. i mean for example, i just threw a party and invited a bunch of people. more than half the people i invited didn't have the courtesy to even let me know that they couldn't come. to quote stephanie tanner "how rude!" i don't know what it is, but i have definitely lost touch with most of my friends. i really seem to only talk to bethany and nick now. no one else. i mean i talk to the people i work with, but i'm not really friends with them outside of work. i know i have nick and i know i work a lot, but schedule has changed so that i have from tuesday evening to thursday afternoon off. but still it seems like i only see nick on my days off. i know if i want to see people i need to make more of an effort, and maybe i will. but i just feel like if i do, no one will be available to do anything.

i miss things too, st. augustine and discovery cove. i don't know what it was about those places but i them. and i don't live in st. augy anymore or go to school there. and i don't work at DC anymore nor do i have the time to add that to the list of places i work.

guess i'm having a off night. wish i could go out and do something. i miss seeing movies every week.